BossMan,
For the record: I really want to do the RSP website work. I prefer to do it, I know how to do it and do it right and would have liked to be in on it from the beginning in helping drive it. It’s just like many other things I’d like to do, and can contribute in new and creative ways, but I’m just bogged down with the every day shuffle of purchasing and putting out fires every day.
I was ready 6 months ago to move on to bigger and better things to thwart burnout. 3 months ago I saw an opportunity to move in a direction of change, for personal growth and challenge. We both agreed, and were excited I had assumed, about the prospect of me taking over the factory safety accounts, and continue, in hope of finishing the web site work.
However the pace of change if far slower than I imagined, I want to move on, I want to do the RSP project, I want to finish BootCenter.com, I’d like to recapture the customers we lost after Frank, after the Hendersons. HECK.. I’d like to finish something!
But I can’t…. and I know you hate that phrase, but it’s the truth.
I’m still pushing papers, ordering product … putting out Marge, Mona, Dick & Ted’s fires, dealing with the shipping and warehouse people …etc. There’s just no way I can give any ‘good’ attention to new projects like RSP. And sitting through 4 long painful interviews this week didn’t give me much hope. At the end of that day I found myself mulling over which of these candidates is the best of the worse. So I stay on my ‘day job’ until we find someone.
Truth be told – I burnt out 3 months ago. I’m tired & disenchanted. I am just hoping for that last spark, but it’s at least a month late. I’m hanging in there, but I’m only ashes of my former self.
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