Renegotiations with myself

Every morning I wake up and decide how my day is going to go. And since lately I’ve been waking and dressing in the dark, so go each day. In the dark looking forward, groping at what’s ahead of me, hoping I don’t stub my toe.

Over the last 5 years I’ve been living only one day at a time. I avoided buying anything on credit, I didn’t invest in long term insurance or 401K’s. I’m the guy that had a hard time thinking of what life would be past 30. So I figured that was my life span. And every day after that was a blessing … or a curse.

Lately, I’m thinking past each day. I have a 401K… a wife, car and mortgage payments.

So I must be seeing some hope for my cause.

Another note: Made a new play list on iTunes today. (I continue with my love-hate relationship with iTunes and my iPod). Is there anything more melancholy than songs about trains or rain? I wonder if anyone has written a tune about a train in the rain?

Hmmm…. Perhaps it will be me.